The Lovers, The Dreamers, and Me.

So I am slightly obsessed with the song: Rainbow Connection.
But only when sung by Sarah Mclachlan!

Who said that every
wish would be heard
and answered when wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it.
Look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that
keeps us star gazing
and what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it,
the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

Asking Too Much

I want somebody who sees the pointlessness
And still keeps their purpose in mind
I want somebody who has a tortured soul
Some of the time
I want somebody who will either put out for me
Or put me out of misery
Or maybe just put it all to words
And make me say, you know
I never heard it put that way
Make me say, what did you just say?
I want somebody who can hold my interest
Hold it and never let it fall
Someone who can flatten me with a kiss
That hits like a fist
Or a sentence, that stops me like a brick wall
Because if you hear me talking
Listen to what I’m not saying
If you hear me playing guitar
Listen to what I’m not playing
And don’t ask me to put words
To all the spaces between notes
In fact if you have to ask, forget it
Do and you’ll regret it
I’m tired of being the interesting one
I’m tired of heving fun for two
Just lay yourself on the line
And I might lay myself down by you
But don’t sit behind your eyes
And wait for me to surprise you
I want somebody who can make me
Scream until it’s funny
Give me a run for my money
I want someone who can
Twist me up in knots
Tell me, for the woman who has everything
What have you got?
I want someone who’s not afraid of me
Or anyone else
In other words I want someone
Who’s not afraid of themself

Do you think I’m asking too much?

-Ani Difranco

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"Lifes too short to spend it pretending to be someone you're not"

All The Roads We Have To Walk Are Winding

I was looking at pictures on a friends myspace, and I saw the picture of D, Q, A, and K. The one where they are walking away from me. I was overcome.
A wave washed over me and I realized, wow, I am amazingly blessed.

I am so lucky to have been able to meet all these crazy people this year.
This year was for me.
This year, I lived for myself. I lived by myself, and this year was ABOUT ME.
I did things that made me happy.
I've met people who made me question myself, who made me realize...
maybe I could stop hiding from the reality of me.
I found myself liking who I was for the first time.
I was no longer that akward little girl, looking for her niche.
Clinging to the one person who understood her in the small town.
This message is for that person: You will always be the Hope to my Darling.
I have never really been a person who thought of things in terms of a box. You know, In or Out.
But, I had confined myself to a box before, and I tore through that box with the help of some wiley and sinister (ha! notsomuch) characters.
But, the moral (ah, there is always a moral!), the moral is:
I LIVED. I Live, and I Love it.