Sometimes in a relationship, going through hell isn't so bad if you come out of it a little stronger.
I guess the same is true about friends.




You were there in the beginning
the first person that ever told me i could be more then what i was, and believed it
there isnt anything I wouldn't share with you.


Yah yah yah, I'm a little asshurt with the entire situation, but being a gloomy gus really isn't going to change a thing now is it?

New blogger is weirdish.

I really need to be more substantial. But keeping a real blog would make too much sense.

UNFORGIVABLE

I'm never told that i am pretty
I'm never told that i am kind
And my soul burns now with fire
Deep inside

I want to become brave and courageous
Not buried in self-pity of my own
Ashamed and alone from all
That's been done to me
It's not my fault i remind myself

You say you don't be afraid
But i feel afraid
You say you don't laugh or cry
But i show emotion
You say food will be on the table
And birds in the sky
But i'm hungry
So hungry
And it's cloudy outside

You never loved me like a daughter
You never even loved yourself
And now you treat me like a burden
Just another object on your shelf

I want you to know that i love you
And this pain that i carry's not my own
Ashamed and alone
From all that's been done to you
It's not your fault
I remind myself

You say you don't be afraid
But i feel afraid
You say you don't laugh or cry
But i show emotion
You say food will be on the table
And birds in the sky
But i'm hungry
So hungry
And it's cloudy outside

No matter what i've done
Or is done to me
Nothing unforgivable
Or unable to be set free

You say you don't be afraid
But i feel afraid
You say you don't laugh or cry
But i show emotion
You say food will be on the table
And birds in the sky
But i'm hungry
So hungry
And it's cloudy outside

I'm in a terrible pain I just can't explain.

What is this
Mass confusion
This crazy way we're living
This emptiness we're passing out
Like candycoatedwaterdrops
I'm spilling out my thoughts
You're spilling out your guts

And I can't
help but stop and think that

If the world stopped spinning
If the end was beginning
Would you even notice if I wasn't there?
If the world stopped spinning around

"All that's worth dying for is already dead"
An empty religion you've learned to accept
When nothing means everything, your daily routine
You go through the motions like a helpless machine

You're spinning 'round
You're spinning 'round
And I can't help wondering
You're spinning 'round
You're spinning 'round
And I can't help wondering

When the answers to everything are right in your hands
You lose your conviction, but you can't help standing
On the one thing that held you for so many years

You ask for forgiveness and hold back the tears

Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say Women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean...you'll know

Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness
Like a heartbeat, drives you mad...
In the stillness of remembering what you had