things are changing.

change is inevitable.

Dear So & So:

Stop. being. so. FUCKING. adorable. and. PERFECT.

Contrary to popular belief, it doesn't make you less attractive...
Shocking twist in the story: it makes you MORE AND MORE AND MORE ATTRACTIVE
UNTIL I EXPLODE.

In fact, you seem so PERFECT FOR ME that even when you commit random acts of jackassery,
I SEEM TO FORGIVE YOU.
This is PISHTOSHNONSENSE, I tell you.

Yes, I concede that this is more of MY problem than YOURS,
but it's blame everything on you day.

Do you think that you could perhaps do the following?
BLOCK MY EMAILS, CHANGE YOUR NUMBER, AND NEVER SPEAK TO ME AGAIN?

I would appreciate this, as it would help me get over your amazing wonderfullness.

-Me

I am so blessed to have best friends who turned into my family
and a family who turned out to be my best friends.

ever had a day where things might not have gone right but
at the end of the day you came out of it feeling so cherished, safe, and happy?

Well, it's happened to me.

There is so much joy in the familiar, almost as much as there is in discovery.

going 90 in a 65...

I'm just the kind of person that lets other people hurt me I think.

But only real pain can be caused by the people you love with all your heart.

its tough, but right now I just don't want to get over it. I don't even know if I can.

I want to scream, cry, fight, yell....I'm so conflicted.

I thought I was already supposed to be a grown up, and by now...things like this shouldn't hurt.

they still do.

twenty-five.

so the "25 random things about me" meme has taken over facebook.
so much so that the NYTimes has written an article about it.

well, I am going to blog my 25 things, but I think they might go over.

1. My brother is my entire world, and some days I wonder what my life would be like without him and it just brings me to tears.

2. Seeing my brother sad or upset literally crushes me.

3. Most kids grow out of thinking their dad is the greatest person on the planet and can solve every problem. I definitely did not. My dad can and has solved every problem I have given him.

4. I can talk to my grandmother for hours upon hours and still never feel like I've said everything there is to say

5. My mom drives me crazy but keeps me sane at the same time. I'm not sure how she does it.

6. I am too friendly. I become friends with most people like that and if I don't take a liking to someone almost instantly it means I probably never will.

7. I wear my heart on my sleeve.

8. I was a really bratty child when we first moved to the United States because I was beyond devastated to have moved away from my cousins. I felt as if my cousins in the US were a poor replacement. I also believed that if I whined and cried enough we would move back.

9. I honestly believe that the restaurant business is in my blood. I know that I will eventually open my own restaurant.

10. Joining my sorority was one of the best decisions of my life.

11. I used to feel really sorry for Steve Urkel when I was a kid.

12. It bothers me when I get mad at people. I don't like being mad at people.

13. I always used to have the worst fights with my cousin Gunjan when we were younger, up until this past year we couldn't stand to be around each other but now it's terrible to be apart.

14. I think I still believe (on some level) that I can meet, seduce, and marry Abhishek Bachchan, and then live happily ever after.

15. I want to live in India for at least a year.

16. My first sleep over was at my cousins house, but I got too scared and had to call my parents to come get me.

17. I think I might still be in love with the first guy I ever fell for. Don't tell him.

18. I think I might have said "I love you" to someone and not have meant it. The thought of it hurts me pretty badly.

19. It bugs me to no end that people think ending up back in my hometown is "failing". It really isn't a terrible place, in fact, it's a WONDERFUL place to raise a family.

20. I need more willpower on a daily basis.

21. Books are love. Seriously, they are.

22. I fall for guys too quickly and then come to my senses and realize they aren't as shiny as I want them to be, and instantly start disliking them.

23. I want to live in California.

24. Trends and Branding is more interesting to me then anything I've known.

25. I think my calling in life is to be a wife and mother more than anything else.

I know everyone is guilty of backbiting, spreading untruths, the whole shebang...but my question is where is the moral guideline for gossip and spitefulness?

i am trying my BEST to look at the bright side of things, trying hard to remember that I have a tendency to feel helpless but in actuality, I CAN DO THINGS.

Trying even harder to remember that, eventually, the rain MUST stop!

i miss you! i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, I MISS YOU.

don't you know that the merest mention of you brings a smile to my face?!
can't you see that?!
you can't imagine what I'm feeling.

It's funny how one reckless, spur of the moment choice that doesn't at all seem to be connected with anything in your life manages to shove you off the path you've been traveling, and alienates the people you were traveling with...

an unintentional two weeks of "absence makes the heart grow fonder" will soon turn into an intentional "out of sight, out of mind" for an indefinite period of time.